Thinkin about stuff to keep my sanity...

It's not that bad, is it? Well, maybe not, but then again, things are going poorly when I talk to myself like this. I'm trying to keep my mind on non-personal stuff for now because I'm kinda sad, which means it's all applications and writing, all the time. So, for programs we're looking at Rutgers, Ole Miss, Colorado, Georgia, Purdue, Bowling Green, Old Dominion, Arkansas, Oregon, Washington, New Hampshire, Colorado St., UNC Greensboro, UNC Wilmington, Indiana, Virginia, SIU Carbondale, Idaho, Wyoming, Montana. I've been gorging on cigarettes and caffeine, I can't tell right from wrong, and for now my capacity to do evil is that of a low-level Bush employee. My IQ has temporarily dropped ten to twenty points due to anxiety, but I'll make up for it with moxie and pornography-watching. Looking into my future is particularly difficult due to the discomfort of the present, but it's something my pounding headache is telling me I have to do. Christmas lights give me vertigo. I'm about as rational as Tracy Jordan, only I don't have an ankle bracelet that detects any alcohol in my system, so I'll take that as a win. My ability to spin hyperbole has never been matched.